Normally in the mental health blogging world we focus on getting off of medication and learning to deal with your conditions. There is nothing wrong with this, and I completely agree that that is the long term aim for almost anyone with a mental illness. However for me, learning to cope with multiple health issues both mental and physical, sometimes is just managing damage control. For me right now, that’s the phase we are in, damage control, and that means taking a little step back and going back on medication. 
Lately Ive had a lot going on, with my psych reassessment coming up, an ME flare up, as well as having to prepare to move again. This all is a lot for anyone to handle, especially while Ive been trying to continue with both the blog and my Creative Writing course, and for someone with depression and anxiety it just all became a bit too much. It took a little while, but I did decide that I needed to go back and get professional help for my mental wellbeing.
I had got to a point where I was having panic attacks again. Not just the odd one, but several each and every day, and mostly over ridiculous things, if there was a trigger at all. Sometimes, I would just be sitting there watching TV or reading my book and all of a sudden my vision would shrink and I wouldn’t be able to catch my breath. From there its a downward spiral.
Going back to the psych doctors was a bit nerve racking as I am currently waiting on a reassessment as they think they may have my diagnosis wrong, but I needed to as the anxiety was just taking control of my life. Ultimately I’m glad that I did, as I have now 
been put back on my anxiety meds that I came off of a few years ago.
This may seem like a step backwards but ultimately its got me in control of my life again- well as much as I can be. I’m only having about one panic attack a day, and they are always for an obvious purpose. I’m lucky that I don’t get side effects from my medication, so its really only a benefit for me. Over time, Ive learnt that I don’t need to be ashamed of taking this little step backwards, as ultimately its going to help me to work forwards and continue to improve.
Should never be afraid to ask for help when you realise you need it, as it can help you from falling backwards.
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great post, it’s really brave that you spoke about such a personal topic. I am also on medication for depression/anxiety. i more so suffer from depression but anxiety defenitly plays its part. im glad you are starting to feel a little bit better and that you took the step to get the help you needed. im sending you all my love and positive vibes xx
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Thank you. I feel it’s important to speak about it so that people realise it’s nothing to be ashamed about. Depression and anxiety seem to go hand in hand most the time, neither are nice and can be as bad as each other I feel. Thank you so much xx
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This is a really brave post, thank you so much for writing it. You are completely right, going back on meds isn’t a step back. A step backwards would be refusing to acknowledge a problem. I’m so glad you got the support you needed and I hope you continue to improve. X
Lisa | http://www.lisasnotebook.com
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Thank you so much. I feel it’s important to talk about this so as to let people know that it’s okay and they aren’t alone.xx
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This isn’t a backwards step at all. And being on meds isn’t any sign of weakness. It’s a sign of great strength that you can recognise what your body needs when it needs it and know what’s best for you. I’m glad you got the help you needed and I hope you’re feeling better x
Sophie
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Thank you, I feel like I definitely need to start seeing it like that xx
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Don’t see it as a step backwards, it’s a step in the right direction towards helping you feel like you again!
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You are right there, I’m definitely feeling more like myself now. Thank you sweetie xx
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This is a really brave and helpful post, thank you for sharing. Well done for reaching out and getting the right help, it’s definitely a positive step forward. I wish you all the best and hope you start to feel better soon lovely 💖 xx
Bexa | http://www.hellobexa.com
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Thank you so much.xx
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Wow, this took courage. But I’m sure it will help others going through a similar situation. I’m happy you’re feeling better and hope you continue to improve
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Thank you; I wrote it to try and show people that it’s okay xx
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Absolutely no shame in getting back on meds when needed. That’s what they were made for and if you need them, you take them. That doesn’t make you an addict or whatever. It makes you someone who deals with her problems! Period!
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That’s how I’ve learnt to see it; I used to have people in my life who thought I should learn to cope without them. But now, I definitely know it’s better to take them and be better for it.xx
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You know better than anyone what’s good for you.
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Couldn’t agree more
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