Hi baby,

So you’re one now. This past year has been a beautiful mess, a year full of ups, downs and all around chaos. The best year of my life while being the most testing, difficult year of my life.

You are the toughest, best thing to ever happen to me.

Becoming a mum has broken me down, built me up, and helped me find myself again. It’s made me hate myself, put myself down; made me see myself in a different way.

You’ve made me excited for each new day with you, made me excited for the future; made me want time to just stop.

I can hand on heart, without any element of doubt, say you are the best thing to ever come into my life. You are my reason for continuing to fight.

This next year I will do all I can for you. I’m learning to see myself through your eyes. I’m learning to realise that you need me, and you need me to look after myself.

You need me healthy, you need me strong; and it’s now down to me to make that happen.

I can’t thank you enough for showing me such unending love my baby. You’ve given me a purpose.

Although I wish time would slow down, wish you’d stay my tiny little bundle of cuddles forever, you are growing to be such a brave confident, stubborn little thing.

You are beautiful, you are smart, you are strong!

You are everything I could ever ask for!

So this year my babygirl, this year is our year. This is the year we’ll make countless more memories, we’ll do everything you could ever want, and this is the year I’m going to do everything within my power to be the best mum for you!

I want to give you the world, I want to show you how much you are loved. I want to make up for those who mistreat you, I want you to know that to me you’ll always be number 1.

Nothing will ever come before you.

With all my heart, I wish I could shield you from everything, i wish you never have to feel not good enough. And this year I’m going to do my best to do that.

I know you need more than just me, but I can’t stand you being treated 2nd best.

You are enough, you are amazing, and you make mummy so proud!

I pray with all my heart that you never feel less than. I wish I could understand why people think of you this way, understand so as to correct them. But I can just not understand.

You shouldn’t be held responsible for people’s opinion on me. Because you are your own little, beautiful person!

And I can’t wait to see the girl you become this year…

Mummy loves you more than I will ever know how to express. You are my world, my moon and my stars. You are my why, and my life.

So as I watch you sleep my darling, just know, mummy is going to make your second year the best it could possibly be. Because you deserve the very best.

So sweet dreams my princess, tomorrow is a new day, and we have your party to prep for…

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