Lifestyle

The Many Adventures of our Houdini, Tigger…

Now I am not too sure that I have let my lovely followers know, that we recently adopted a group of four gerbils. This was back in July, and we built them their own huge mansion to live in. I’m not going to lie, we are a bit behind on socialising them, we have actually found it to be quite tough to socialise them as they just don’t seem to respond the way previous gerbils I have had before used to.img_0605

The cheeky four’s names are Chilli, Stripes, Dash and Tigger, and this post is all about the adventures of Tigger over the last month.

Long story short, we were cleaning them out the other week. So going through the normal routine of getting them in their exercise balls or carriers, but low and behold, I go to get Tigger out and instead of climbing on my hand like the others do, she just clean leapt out of the cage. This was incidence number one!img_1079

This little adventure of hers led to her being loose in our living room for just over four and a half hours, and us having to recruit a friend to come over at nearly midnight. Oh and did I mention this was all the night before we had a house inspection?

Anyway, she was caught and put back with the others, and we started taking extra precautions when opening the cage.

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But several days later, yes you guessed it, she got out again!

This time she managed to make a very tiny whole at the back of the cage, and squeeze through it. Still now we have no idea how she managed it! But the point is she did, and I’m ashamed to say that we aren’t completely sure as to when she got out. There is about a 36hour period when she may of got out – we’d had a really busy few days.img_0603

So anyway, we managed to locate that she was definitely within the living room. The door quickly got secured, and we started the hunt- yes once again it was gone midnight! Oh and yes, we were going away for the night the following day, so we had an hour to find her.

We managed to get her trapped under a sofa, so we called our friend again to help us with catching her, and had to take a break while we waited for back up – I had an asthma attack so had to stop for a bit.

Well, typically in the twenty minutes we weren’t in the room, we lost all sight of her. She was most certainly not under the sofa we thought we had trapped her under!

To speed things up, after an hour and a bit of searching for her high and low- Im not exaggerating, we were checking EVERYWHERE- she was not to be found. Knowing we had to be up and out the house within 3 hours, as it was 2am by this point, we had to just leave food and water down for her and call it a night.

Fast forward to the following day when we were back from our trip, we restarted the search for Tigger. This time though we had gotten hold of some super humane traps. There was clear signs that she was still in the room. There was now food in her water, food moved, and a cushion all nicely shredded- thank you for that! But we decided to not stress about turning the place upside down, and just laid the traps and refilled her water.

And low and behold, woke up the next morning to her safe and sound in the trap, although a little stressed which was horrible.

Well then came the next adventure, reintroducing her to her sisters. Initially we put her in a different cage but right up against the main cage as we needed to go out, and by this point she had been out for anything from 3 to 5 days. I spoke to vets to get their opinion on putting her back with the others, and it was generally agreed that she should go back with her sisters. It was actually believed that she would go back without any issues.

Oh boy was that wrong. We tried to reintroduce her, and very quickly she was attacked. After much perseverance, about an hour later I made the call to get her out of there. The final straw for me was when she was smothered by the other three all pinning her and attacking- much longer left they would of killed her. And you guessed it, when trying to remove her, she jumped out the cage AGAIN!

This time was easier to catch her though as after an hour she managed to get herself stuck in a toy bag, so it was rather easy to grab her.img_1254

Fast forward to now, she has got her own cage, all kitted out full of toys and activities and generally cosy comfy homeliness. We have found that she is preferring to be away from the big cage as it seems to stress her out, and she is getting so much better with human company- although could still use improvement!

The more we have thought about it, and the more we have seen her come into her own character, we believe that she may of been being bullied for a little while. We have always noticed that they are a group that will have fights but we generally don’t have to intervene. But she was and always has been significantly smaller than the others, never really been seen out and playing, and was always just shy away from everything. Don’t get me wrong she isn’t the most confident now, but she is definitely improving.img_1255

What are your thoughts, do you think it sounds like she was being picked on before? Have you ever kept a gerbil on its own and if so how did it cope?

This is a new venture for us, raising a gerbil individually, as I’ve only ever had pairs so I’m apprehensive as to making sure she is okay.

Health · Lifestyle

Periods from Hell after Depo…

God, sometimes I hate being a women!

For a bit of background, I was put on the depo injection at 15 years old, after trying the pill for about three years beforehand. I found periods unbearable at a young age because of the combination of hormone symptoms and my disabilities.

I always found that my periods were rather severe. Bleeding would happen every other week, I would always become anaemic from blood loss, pass out and generally be debilitated from the pain of cramps. Hence why from a very young age after hitting puberty, my family and the doctors decided to try and stop my periods using birth control.

Now I have come off of all birth control in order to try and start a family with my partner. I was warned that it could be that my hormones would react the same as they used to or it could be better. There was also a chance due to how long I’ve been on the depo that my hormones may never return normally- but that’s a whole different story.

What I have found has happened for me is that they have come back just as I remember them.

So since Christmas I have been having periods every other week again, and wow have they been HEAVY! I haven’t passed out from them, however I do have another condition that causes me to black out so its hard to tell. But oh the PAIN!

I am having to take my morphine, constantly have a hot water bottle strapped to my stomach, and am still snapping at everyone!

Doctors will be called in the week I think as this is ridiculous.

So my question to any of you who have had the depo is did your cycles get better? 

Currently I have only ovulated once since December that I have caught on test, but my last cycle was 25 days which is at least a touch more normal. Just praying for this one to finish in the next few days and will then start the ovulation tests again.

What other posts would you like to see about my trying to conceive journey? I am hoping to document most of it, as I feel like it would both be interesting for you and exciting for me to write. Not to mention the help it may give to other people who are coming off the depo after a long time, as there really isn’t much useful information out there about it.

Health · Lifestyle

Slimming World Journey #2

While the title of this may be a touch misleading, stick with me and allow me to explain because I feel like it will make sense.

MY  NHS subscription for Slimming World ran out at the end of December, leaving me to think long and hard about whether or not to continue. Within the twelve weeks that I attended group, I managed to lose little over half a stone- now I know that it isn’t a great amount, however, with my health conditions its very hard for me to lose weight. So I was pretty happy with that weight lose personally!

When I came to think about it I felt that I could put the £4.95 a week to better use for my health than just spending it to continue on at group. So that’s the decision I made, I stopped attending group and have signed up at my local swimming pool and plan to start swimming once a week instead.

Now there is another reason why I decided to stop that I would just briefly like to talk about.

Although the consultant was absolutely wonderful and lovely, I really could not praise her enough, the rest of the group I found to be quite cold and isolating. I do believe that this was quite a lot to do with just bad luck of the group and time that I chose to go to, however it was still very off putting. It was mostly older women, and I would spend most groups sat on my own. If I tried to make conversation then it was very quickly shut down, and if I ever made any suggestions during the group itself then no one ever seemed to have a comment, unlike if others made suggestions. I just felt so unwelcome and alone during group, that it made me just not want to stay.

With all that being said, the plan itself really did seem to work for me. It was simple, and reasonably flexible which works for me who hates to be confined to rules.

So for that reason I have decided to continue on with the plan itself, just this time I will be doing it from home- meaning I need to buy a set of scales! I will be weighing myself once a week, and keeping a track of it. Honestly I feel that this is going to be a lot better for me, as no more awkward interaction, and it opens up the money to allow me to do some swimming.

What does that mean for my slimming world posts? Well I will be continuing them every now and again, a bit like I have been now. I am hoping to post some of the recipes I come across that I do myself, and hopefully do some recipe reviews from both the slimming world website as well as the pinch of nom books- that I now finally have! Of course, I will also update you with my progress from time to time.

Have you ever tried a weight club? What did you think of them? What weight loss methods work for you?

Books

February TBR ‘2020

In typical me fashion, I have started off the year rather terribly. That’s right you guessed it, I finished a grand total of ZERO books this month!

Do I have an excuse? No I’m not so sure I do, I just need to get my life together!

The only good thing I can say about my reading for this month was that I did make some progress on Wonderland, and wow am I loving these short stories! I feel like there was no reason I couldn’t of finished it, I just didn’t do it…

So that’s it for my failure of January, and now lets move onto February- it HAS to be better!!

Because of having such a bad month, in order to stick to my Goodreads goal, I need to get through three books, in the shortest month of the year. Yes, I know that it is possibly the least smart thing ever…

Now one of the books on this TBR is sticking the same, and that is the Wonderland Anthology. I am a good way through this and absolutely loving it, its so dark, but metaphorical, its simply beautiful so far. I am hoping to get this finished over the course of the month as it is nice to be able to pick up the odd short story here and there.

But my first focus for the month is A Queen in Hiding by Sarah Kozloff, a book I have been lucky enough to be gifted by the wonderful TOR. This is the first in a fantasy series where they are releasing the books one each month I believe, meaning you could finish the whole series by April! 45046606

Orphaned, exiled and hunted, Cérulia, Princess of Weirandale, must master the magic that is her birthright, become a ruthless guerilla fighter, and transform into the queen she is destined to be.

But to do it she must win the favor of the spirits who play in mortal affairs, assemble an unlikely group of rebels, and wrest the throne from a corrupt aristocracy whose rot has spread throughout her kingdom.

Its said to be for fans of Naomi Novik and Victoria Aveyard, authors who I have really enjoyed previously, so I am so confident that I am going to love this one!

Then finally, I really want to get to The Stars We Steal by Alexa Donne which is due to be released by on 4th of Febuary. The lovely Titan have gifted me this, and I can not wait to get to it. Especially since reading the Selection last year, as this sounds like its got a very similar vibe- which is something I am really in the mood for!Stars We Steal_final[8603]

Engagement season is in the air. Eighteen-year-old Princess Leonie “Leo” Kolburg, heir to a faded European spaceship, only has one thing on her mind: which lucky bachelor can save her family from financial ruin?

But when Leo’s childhood friend and first love Elliot returns as the captain of a successful whiskey ship, everything changes. Elliot was the one that got away, the boy Leo’s family deemed to be unsuitable for marriage. Now, he’s the biggest catch of the season and he seems determined to make Leo’s life miserable. But old habits die hard, and as Leo navigates the glittering balls of the Valg Season, she finds herself falling for her first love in a game of love, lies, and past regrets.

Keep your eyes open for reviews to come later this month.

With those books in mind, there may still be others that I pick up if I fancy them- at this point I just need to get back ino my rythm of reading!

Other books that may be picked back up are Fate of the Fallen by Kel Kade, and The Elite by Kiera Cass. These were both on my TBR in January but we both know how that month ended up…

What are you planning to read this monht? Have you got anything you are really looking forward to for the month?

As I seemed to of lost my mojo with reading, does anyone have any book reccommendations for someone who NEEDS to get back to reading?

 

 

Health

Thoughts at the start of our Trying to Conceive journey….

Welcome to something completely different for this blog, or at least I say completely different as this is unlike anything I have ever gone through before. This is something me and my partner have decided we both want so badly, and we are trying to make it happen despite knowing the challenges we are going to come across. And that is why we are now trying for a child of our own.

Although we made this decision a while back, we haven’t been really doing anything about it as my contraception took 10 months to get out of my system enough for my cycles to restart. But this finally happened in December.

What has brought me to write this post is that I’ve actually been going through a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions since we’ve been trying to conceive. BY no means has my mind changed as to what I want, but the initial disappointment of an unsuccessful first month, along with the fear of change just plays on my mind sometimes.

100%, I am certain that I want a baby, as I know me and partner will be great parents together, and we are both absolutely ready for this.

But at night, I have a habit of over thinking. Now, I never sleep well- sleeping is just not my thing! So it is not unheard of for me to over think during that time, so its really not out of the ordinary, however its what I’ve been overthinking about lately that has changed.

I’ve had some very rough relationships in the past, and this is my first long term adult relationship. We have our home, our pets, and his adorable little girl. So I know we can take another child all of our own, we would actually love it more than anything in the world.

One of my biggest fears is to lose what we have, and at night I find myself over thinking that what if adding something new or someone new, ruins what we already have. I have no reason to really think this, we are solid as anything, and a child is something we both really want. But when you are tired and cant sleep, all sorts of things cross you mind.

But that is just the fear of change, and I know that.

The other major thing is whether I will be able to be a mother. With this I mean both whether or not I am able to concieve and carry, as well as how will I be if we do have a little one.

I have always been told that medically it is not known whether or not I can carry a child. With my complex medical history, it is a serious possibility that I can not, but that still not something that I can even begin to imagine. We are under specialists currently so that I am being monitored, and I will under go further investigations if we continue to not be able to.

But a big fear of mine is what if I am a terrible mother. Now I know that most people probably go through this, but I cant say I ever really thought it until now! I cant help but think what if I cant deal with a baby and my already terrible ability to sleep. I’m sure I will write a whole post about my parenting fears when and if we ever get to preparing for a baby.

So now just briefly I want to mention the emotions of our first month of trying. My cycle came and went, and god did we baby dance to try. I tracked my ovulation so I know that that only slightly earlier than my Flo app suggested. Then at 8dpo (days past ovulation), I had some very light spotting, which we over excitedly thought was implantation bleeding. So when 12dpo came along we started testing, but sadly my cycle then reappeared.

Since then my cycle has been incredibly unreliable and has been every two weeks since then- so not sure whats happening there.

I would love to hear from you if you are also trying to conceive as I know how isolating this experience can feel. WE aren’t really telling people so this is my outlet.

What are your experiences? Did you struggle to conceive, or is it something that you are still going through?

 

Books · Health

Bed Rest 2.0 2020

I am sad to sat that this isn’t even a record, but from the third week of the year I am on bed rest.

Only difference with this bed rest experience is it has not got all that much to document! I have been in bed now (Saturday) since Monday, and this is the first time I have even felt like picking my laptop, or a book, or literally anything that wasn’t medication.

For the entirety of the past five days I have been working on the routine of sleeping for 3 hours and then awake for one. This has been a constant cycle, night and day for the last 5 days. Its only really been today where I managed to sleep 14 hours straight- bar waking after 9 hours for some more medication- which has allowed me to be awake for a while, and actually have some small amount of brain energy.

So, whats led to this bed rest? Its been a horrid virus, that has felt like a real combination of glandular fever and the flu. It has a 100% wiped me out, and left me too tired and drained to do anything but sleep! I’ve not eaten anything in this time, my partner has been getting me to eat juice lollies when I am awake in order to keep my sugars up, but that has been about it.

Today, I’m still very rough and stuffy, still using paracetamol and morphine to try and control my pain and swollen glands, and naproxen to try and control gland and tonsil swelling so that I can manage small amounts of food. Although this is just a virus, its playing up my chronic illnesses and weakened immune system, something chronic!

Next, what have I been up to today? Well, I’ve still been feeling rather naff as I said, so I have been continuing my marathon re-watch of Chuck on Amazon Prime. If you have never watched this then you really do need to! It is an amazing (although somewhat old) spy comedy action tv series that has 5 series- making it the perfect binge watch programme! I watched it when I was younger but I couldn’t help myself what I found out it was on amazon prime.

As for reading I have been doing some today. I have read a couple of the short stories in Wonderland the Anthology- the perfect book kind of book to pick up when you aren’t feeling all that great as you can get through one of the little stories before you get tired and want to put it down to rest. I am absolutely loving this book as a whole, so keep an eye out for my review in the coming weeks.

Now for a final comment, not so much to do with my bed rest, but something that has made today a little brighter. I woke up to two lovely packages from Tor and Titan. From Tor, I received a copy of A Queen in Hiding by Sarah Kozloff, the first in a new fantasy series. This will definitely by jumping onto my TBR as I can not wait to read this one! I think this will be one to get me completely back into reading! Then from Titan, to satisfy any Thriller cravings, I have a copy of All the Best Lies by Joanna Schaffhausen. I’m not 100% if I’ve read her debut, it doesn’t jump out as a book I remember for some reason, but this one I am definitely looking forward to. I love a good thriller relating to family history!

On a positive note, I think it will be a few more days before Im back to strength to get out of bed, so at least this will give me time for reading and some more Chuck watching!

So that’s what my week on bed rest has been like this time around. How has your week been? Have you been effected by this awful virus that has been going around?

 

Books

January TBR ‘2020

These are one of my favourite blogs to write, and I will definitely be having this post up each month- hopefully be the first post for each month! Please let me know if you think I should combine it with what I had actually read the previous month.

My aim for the 2020 is read a minimum of 20 books! Now I know that is a super low target, ah its less than 2 books a month! But after the failure I had last year with moving out and helping care for my step daughter, I decided to set my sights low this year- as I have even more busy things planned.

That being said, I think how my TBR’s are going to work is I will pull out 3 books each month for that I plan to read- but not that I nessacarily plan to get through them all! This way it gives me options, plus its so hard to narrow it down to the correct number! Any books that I do not have hold of at the time of writing these TBRs wont be included, however that does not mean that I wont read them if they do arrive! Its just easier for me to determine my TBRs just from looking at my shelves for the time being! I will then tell you in the next month what I actually ended up reading- tell me how you like this done., Either in a separate post or as part of the TBR the following month?

Now with all my questions and explanations out of the way, I will get into the three books I have pulled out for this month.

The first is a book I started over the Christmas period when it first got sent to me. A fantasy sent to me by the lovely Tor, and one I definitely want to finish off at the soonest opportunity. Fate of the Fallen by Kel Kade- I am a just under 100 pages in currently, and its definitely one that got me hooked very quick!

Not all stories have happy endings.

Everyone loves Mathias. Naturally, when he discovers it’s his destiny to save the world, he dives in head first, pulling his best friend Aaslo along for the ride.

However, saving the world isn’t as easy, or exciting, as it sounds in the stories. The going gets rough and folks start to believe their best chance for survival is to surrender to the forces of evil, which isn’t how the prophecy goes. At all. As the list of allies grows thin, and the friends find themselves staring death in the face they must decide how to become the heroes they were destined to be or, failing that, how to survive.

Another which I have already started is my kindle book for the month, The Elite by Kiera Cass. This is the second book in the Selection series, and one that I just had to buy after I finished the first, I think Ive read the first chapter but that about it. It is proving to be an amazing series to reread.

Then finally is a short story collection,as I felt that this would be a good between appointments and just generally good for the busy month I have this January. Wonderland: An Anthology, is a collection of Alice in wonderland inspired short stories. Once again I have already read the first from this as well, and it certainly does not disappoint! This one is going to be staying in my handbag for me to take with me to my appointments and the like this month.

What are you reading this month? Are you doing any rereads, and what made you decide to reread them?