Anyone who has ever struggled with mental health of any variety will know that rollercoaster you can go through in just one short week. Such a small event, one that may cause you a bit grief, can then lead to lots of seemingly insignificant things being deeply upsetting. This can lead to flare ups throughout your mental health. This is exactly what has been happening to me this past week. My anxiety and depression has been up in the air, leading to me losing all routine with the blog, twitter, and just generally in all life aspects.
Last Sunday, one of my little gerbils passed away. He had been a bit off all week, and my father then found him asleep on Sunday morning. I wasn’t overly surprised, as he was nearly four years old he was a fine age, not to mention that he had gone through cancer surgery. I will be writing more about his passing in the near future.
But it does not matter however prepared you are, a loss of a pet is always hard, however big or small you grow to love any creature you look after for a significant amount of time.
See, although I was obviously upset about this, it also felt like an element of relief as it meant I knew he was no longer suffering in any way. Of course I had concerns as to how his brother would cope on his own, but generally I felt alright. However this putting me in a slightly bad place on Sunday, had a big knock on effect to the rest of the week.
I wont go into detail about most of the events that followed as many of them are personal and many to do with things that have happened this year that I would prefer to keep to myself.
However nothing all that major happened, but it was enough to cause my depression to flare. I found myself being sent further and further down a negative spiral, each thing impacting me more and more. It got to a point where I just couldn’t handle even the slightest bit of negativity. Hence why I ended up taking a complete break from the blog, and an almost complete break from Twitter.
Sometimes you just have to take a step back as otherwise life could just get the better of you. When you have unstable mental health even the simplest of things can give you a bit of a bump, and set you on a psychological rollercoaster for the following period. But you have to make the time for yourself, to look after your own mental and physical health. This is what I was doing last week.
I now hope to step my game up again, and work on content for the rest of the month. Also, I am planning a giveaway for when I hit 1k followers on Twitter, so be sure to check out my twitter for more details.
What do you find can cause your mental health problems?